Grief Overwhelming

Today grief is overwhelming.
Eating at the pit of my stomach.
Tearing my heart apart.

My busyness, now replaced with loneliness.
Hours spent alone.
Finally allowing myself to grieve.
Doing nothing but sitting inside myself.
Wondering about. Helplessly.
Not knowing what to do. Feeling lost.

Filling myself with sadness.
Wanting so much to kiss your lips.
Feel your arms around me.

I want to rest.
Uncertainty will not allow my eyes to fall.
So I pace for your presence.

Reality kicks in.
Your children home from a long days work.
It hits me.
You are no longer here.
I see you within their greeting.

Tears flow from my eyes.
I hear about the day and I want to run.
Run into the other room.
To embrace you who is no longer here.

My head ponds with agony.
Tears continue to pour from my body.
My arms weak from reaching out for you.
My legs tired from the search.

I miss you. I need you. love you.
I can’t seem to see you through my tears.
I can’t seem to breathe through the pain.

My grief is heavy.
No strength to see tomorrow.
Yet I know you are with me.
You will bring me new light.
You will see that I smile another day.
You will continue to fill me up.
You and God will see me through.

Another day will come and go without you.
And I will still feel loved by you.

Luv, Luv,

Julie

By | 2018-05-20T20:10:43+00:00 May 20th, 2018|Inspiration, Life|3 Comments

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Julie Metzger of Cincinnati, OH is the Owner/Founder of Returning the Gift, has over 20+ years of Information Technology experience and has 12+ years of church & community involvement. She is working on her mission to change the world through Faith, Hope, Courage, Strength, Inspiration and most of all Love!

3 Comments

  1. Amanda May 20, 2018 at 8:35 pm - Reply

    Love and hugs. Grief can be heavy and overwhelming. And never ending. You have such a beautiful heart ❤️

  2. Linda B May 21, 2018 at 4:18 pm - Reply

    I’m sorry for your grief. I know it feels endlessly deep and as though you will never breathe freely again. It’s OK to feel that deep pain, because you loved so deeply!
    Know that I am here and you can reach out..whenever you may need to.

  3. Nicki Veldhaus May 24, 2018 at 6:25 am - Reply

    Julie, we are somehow connected…I don’t understand how or why. Just know I think of you often and pray for you and your boys.
    Love, Nicki

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